im feeling much better today.well todays post will not be the same as the others ok. well i dont know wat to do now.well i dont think i will ever be with that particular guy and i dont think i even want to.i hate to say this but i dont know lar.ive stop calling hym ald.i just want hym to be my bestfriend not more then that.plz larh make it easier for me can?i jus need an option and a solution for this.i want to finish this shit the easy way.nobody's knows bout this cause i nvr told them what i feel inside.inside is different and outside is different ppl knows that stupid stuff.i cant lie to myself anymore.you ppl just have to understand me.im different in some ways but i dont mine what you ppl tink of me larh.i want to msg hym but im just in no mood to entertain hym.i want to call hym but i sick and tired of talking but i need another solution in ending this crap.pls larh help me.im tired of lying to myself this days.its not that i hate hym or something.i love hym but like my best buddy not like a boyfriend to me.you ppl get it rite?urghh why bother talking bout this shit on my blog?i just cant stand it anymore.you ppl understand?im living in my own world rite know.ive been at home.and im not sure whether i should see the outside world?it is just too irritating seeing ppls face.not in the bad way but in the good way.i know you ppl wont undersstand so why should i bother writing? fuck this world larh. hate it veryyyyyyyy much. byebye ppl.live ur beatiful life larh ehk.!!!! byebye ppl.