Wednesday, May 13, 2009
had my physics paper early in the morning. & yeah, i went to school alone. i was early indeed & went straight to class. i guess, i screwed my physics paper as most of the questions were left blank & undone. i just couldnt recap on what have i studied for the past few days. it sucks & yes i know. i cant do anything but just wait for the results. ohmy! i guess mid-year sucks. damn! but not to worry, will be studying hard for N-levels. whatever to the people who looked down on N-level people. wth? its still a major exams though. (:
aftr my paper, went to bpp to spent time with that belated birthday boy. with me was salihan, alwee, harun & izz. & yes, im the only girl but who cares. salihan,alwee&harun is my best guy friends. haha. so, have our lunch at KFC & headed to 179 to just slack around. i bought cakes for everyone. money aint a problem. its just that this is the last year being with harun. ooooh, im gonna miss you boy 16 ! hahaha. whatever to the age siaa. haha (:
& happy birthday to miramonster ! best wishes girl ! (:
& i guess, this is the end huh?. i dont mind. since im not needed in yor life's, i will go. better still ill just vanished. no more words will be spoken. i had enough. im asking, what have i done? you said, i did nothing. but what is this? is this what you call a bestfriend? NO! im asking, how will you guys feel when you are in my situation? answer me?! at first, you guys made me feel leftout by telling each other yor problems. what abt me? who am i to you guys? am i just a piece of shit laying here on the ground waiting for someone to clean me up? huh? am i just a "friend" to you guys that you guys cant tell me abt "A" thing? im not talking abt favouritism but this is the fact. yes, you may say that this is not an issue. okay, its not important to you i guess. im just starting for fun ! yes, for fun. tears of joy is rolling down my cheeks eveytime i think of you N _ _ _ _ _ _ H. this is our very first big fight. i've never thought this thang would have happen but yet, im wrong. it seems that someone is more important than me. dont worry, i understand. & why!, why ? must you lied to me? you told me that you must go home. saying that your mum told you so. but in the end, did you went home? im asking, did you ? while we were walking out of school, i thought you guys were tagging along behind me. but when i turned, you guys were no where to be found. yes, i appreciate it that you guys walk off without any goodbyes. so, i called you & i was talking to you nicely on the phone & is there a need for you to raise yor voice at me ? huh? i turned back & look, searching for you. & im surprise to see what im seeing. you, she & him walking. damn, you may think. omg! deela saw! shit ! or whatsoever. i turned quite a number of times to look but dhen, i couldnt control myself but to text you. & im fine that you said you must go home STRAIGHT ! it seems like someone had alrdy replace my place. im okay with that though. really. he's important to you guys & okay, im fine with that too. you even have the cheek to say that you had problems at home. but did you update me with everything? whatever. i couldnt bear this pain anymore. goodbye to our 3 years of friendship.
& to you, thanks alot for saying everything. you may seem not to care abt our friendship. yes, you have that guy to replace me. so what the heck? you seems to take back yor words abt " what does it have to compared with 4 years of friendship" . you are so self-centered. think abt what you said that made people feel so heartbroken. it may seem alright but actually, it isnt. goodbye to our 4 years of friendship.
dont bother abt me anymore. im just a nobody here. you guys deserves each other more than i ever deserves you guys. happy living yor life with that guy, yes?
i need someone to cry on. i need time. i need my space. i dont need anymore excuses.
once, its from him & now, its form my own bestfriends. Thanks Alot :'(
Labels: im out of yor life
Deela's Ending || Wednesday, May 13, 2009
