Wednesday, June 10, 2009
so much conflicts these days. i couldn't seem to understand why other's dare to even do something that they shouldn't have done. some just want to be a blog gangster. is blogging so violent? im not sure. that could lead to fights and it is just making the situation to be worst than ever. please, i can't stand to see bloggers acting to be a hero or anything. but it's all up to them.
& yes, i met my kambeng just now. i manage to find my pants & flip flops. but im craving for more things to fit in my wardrobe. & before picking anything, im gonna make sure that i have enough $$$ to clear all things on my list. im only gonna spend on things which is affordable & worth buying. so, thats saving up extra cash for any outings which is gonna be plan soooon. im so gonna get out of this house & just have fun outside with my loves. it seems like everyone is busy with their own personal lives. but please, have some time off to cathch up with things. i can see that some is alrdy drifting apart from me. i dont want this to happen. let's be like before. i miss outings & yes, i am too busy with my stuffs. but i manage to balance off everything which is from school to work to family to friends & also to myself alone.
i skipped lessons again just now. i woke up late & i didn't have the mood to attend school as it was alrdy 10am according to my clock. so, i washed up & had breakfast with little kid & mum at mcdonald's. while mum was busy with the "shopping" at the wet market, i was busy entertaining little kid with his lame jokes. if i got a chance, i feel like slapping his cute face. nyeahahah. i hate it when he smiles as he will just show off his fucking dimples!
Me: Eh! jgn senyum la bodoh. aku taknak tgk kau nyer dimple! *irritated*
Little kid: Takpe uh. *putting his toungue's out & continue smiling*
Me: Aku sumbat ini hashbrown dlm mulot kau baru tau.
Little kid: Takpe, nnt khair makan*laughing away*
Me: *push him to the side & continue eating*
see how irritating that little kid can be! haiyah. but he's lucky that he's cute. hahaha. wtv eh:)
& yes yes, lot 1's rooftop gardens is open to public. but, its nothing interesting. & ooh, i saw this typical girl. she was all wet with her clothes. & guess what, she has no extra clothes to get her self all dried up. & she just walked arnd all drench. shameless. shame shame. hahaha. okay, whatever!
im so gonna attend the guides camp! spending my nights with my guides. as this may be my last year. but ooh, pray hard that im gonna spend another year in this ass school. meaning, being promoted to sec 5 of course. hahah. i wont be retaining. im sure :) . im working hard alrdy. revision's after revision's. im better :)
please, i dont like to be used. i hate it when you just treat me as if im like a piece of trash. what's your motive behind all your actions?
i shouldn't have picked you up when your down. i shouldn't gave the name Buddy to you. it seems that you have never appreciate what people have done to you. why are you being like this? i agree that last time you were kinda hypocrite with your actions. but me, as a bestie to you, didnt regard you as a hypocrite friend. last time, it was me who you cried on the phone with the burdens you carried alone. the problems you had which is pilling up. with the thoughts you had. i was the advicer to almost everything. remember, you told me you are alone with nobody by your side? but i was there with you. because at that point of time, i care. i care so much about you as you were my buddy. but now, it seems that you didnt appreciate me one bit. i agree at some point of time that because of you, i hate my two friends. because of you, i betrayed them. because of you, i lost both of them. i dont know how, but actually you are the cause of almost everything. i may say that im stupid enough to accept you. to listen to everything that you told me. & to even tell you everything that i know until at a point of time, the trust in me from them was fading. it was all thanks to you. im not balming you for my lost. but im just telling that you are the cause of it. you suck boy & you should know that. im not putting up a fight between anyone here. after reading this, just act as if nothing was written here. thanks!
& the song " Be With You " is stucked in my head. gaaaaah ! :)
Happy Birthday Sriwahidah ! i love you many many ! :)
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Deela's Ending || Wednesday, June 10, 2009
